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Aka Time for an Update!

It has been a few days since I last posted and thought it worthwhile updating the good ol' blog. I've been back at work a little over a week and despite my apprehensions, it has been surprisingly fine. For me, it seems to be fairly quiet at the moment, so hopefully I can crack on with some training, and fingers crossed I'll be feeling okay to be back up to full time and can continue working my way up the Banana Seller career ladder.

Mental health wise, it is Mental Health Awareness week! If I'm honest, I never really thought that mental health issues would affect me that much. I've usually considered myself to be pretty lucky in my situations, but I suppose everyone has a wobble at some point. For me it's now, with my ear and hair, the world at large, and a realisation of late that I quite often compare myself to other people which doesn't really help me with my self-esteem. However, I've got my appointment coming up the day after tomorrow which I think will set me on the right track, and I can begin to organise my mind and try to get better. I have a bit or trepidation about it as the only thing that can fix my mind is me. Therapy and having a supporter will point me in the right direction and help me cope and organise my thoughts, but to really get better and get something out of it, I've got to put the effort in and I will reap what I sow.

Prior to starting therapy I've got my ear appointment in the morning. I am flipping between a calm and reasoned state and almost full on panic mode on this one. On the one hand I might be told that it's all fine and not much to worry about, on the other it's possible diagnosis of a rare chronic illness that could lead to being profoundly deaf in one ear. So, yaknow, no big deal, eh?

In all honesty, I've not much more to add at the moment. Life's been pretty humdrum - work, drawing, painting chairs, feeling ill because I ate too many onion rings, napping, not sleeping, weird nightmares, cooking dinner and trying to enjoy the sunshine. (Actually on this latter part I have found a ton of wild garlic growing near to where I live when I went on a walk so that's going to be fun to cook with.) I'll update more on Wednesday once I've passed that milestone appointment.

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